I love you like a love song baby. – Selena Gomez & The Scene (I Love You Like A Love Song Baby)
I tried to stay away from you. (I swear). You wielded too much power over me, and I knew I was drinking you way too much. I needed you more and more… you’d leave me up for hours. Shaking. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to get healthy/sleep more, so I decided to cut you out of my life.
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible.
My god, I didn’t know the hold you had on me. I remember when we first met, and from the first drop my life hasn’t ever been the same. The first day without you was rough. I could still taste you, and more than once you entered my mind. I resisted. I refused to even go into the convenience store on the corner, because you’d surely beckon. For the last three days, I’ve been feeling horrible/drained/blah. I couldn’t focus, almost as if there was a thick veil over my brain.
There’s no way to describe what you do to me, you just do to me what you do….. you are magical, lyrical, beautiful, you are.
I felt drugged, but not in the good way. Yesterday, I drifted off in class, and my student Hiromi asked me if I’d had a long day: “Why yes, I have.” (An eight-hour day with no Red Bull). Weary. I’ve been weary, so I decided just to get a bit of you this morning, and some more of your heavenly gold this afternoon. Almost at once, I became alive, a breathing/thinking woman again. Awake.
You saved my life again, and I want you to know I love you like a love song baby.
Red Bull, I won’t deny anymore that I need you in my life. I promise to never be such a fool again… come what may.
All my love,